New Page

Hey everyone. I would love if you all could take a minute and read the new Page that I posted. It took a lot of courage to tell everyone my story, so please take time, if you have it to get to know me a little better. Thanks in advance. I love you all and all of your encouraging comments.

College for dummies

Its been over a weeks since my last post and what a week it has been. I finally got my schedule for college which is super exciting and very scary. I cant believe Im actually going to do this. I have finally got all my ducks in a row and its really happening. And Im pretty sure I have gone to far to chicken out now. I have dreamed about going back to college and becoming a nurse for years now and I think its finally happening. I have said since I decided to go that I was definetly going to go on and get my bachelors degree. But recently I have been debating on going even further. I figure if Im ok with school and really enjoy my new found career, that I may get my masters and test to become a Nurse Practitioner for women health. I have been interested in becoming a mid wife since I had a mid wifes for my second pregnancy and it was the best experience of my life. I wish I had, had the same experience with my first girl, but regardless, it was still amazing. Anyways, am I crazy? I'm almost 31 years old and Im just starting school. Is this really all possible or am I putting to much on my plate. I guess Im just getting scared. I wish there was a handbook out there that had all the answers to life in it so we could all just read our book and not have to make all these life changing decisions. At least I have a huge support system in my husband whom is so fantastic. I thank God for him each day. Keep praying for me everyone as I start this whole new chapter in life that is scaring the crap out of me.

day two headache

A non-stop headache for the second day in a row is not much fun. Im definetly feeling the pressure to perform my motherly duties today. The only time the pain subsides is when I have my head pressed into a pillow. And we all know how much time I have to do that. Also, in about an hour, my daughters friend will be here for a sleep over. Sometimes I think I'm trying to punish myself by taking on so much, but my problem is saying the word "no". It seems like such a simple word, but to me it means dissappointing someone. And I dont like to do that. I guess its something that Im going to have to work on. But for now, i'll just keep pushing on, and waiting for words of encouragement from a few new friends. Thanks again everyone for listening to my babblings.

Ranting and Raging

Im having one of those days today. My kids are out of control, pounding on walls and whining constantly about everything. They wont listen to a word I say. Like seriously can you give me a break please. I havent even been able to finish one cup of coffee today and I usually drink 3 at least. My head is literally pounding like someone is hammering it from inside and I cant get a moments peace!!! I try so hard to be a good mother and keep my cool as much as possible, but I cant seem to keep it all together today. My patience are wearing thin. And to top it all off my husband is being a giant pain in the butt. I usually bring him his lunch at work around 10ish since Emma got out of school cause our schedule has changed a little and kids sleep till like 9. So when he called this morning I told him I would be dropping his lunch off between 10:30- 11. Instead he calls me at like 8:45 and says, "Im gonna be at such and such in like five minutes, wanna bring me my lunch?" and me being the obedient wife that I am said,"sure give me like 15 mintues ive gotta throw it together." In return I get an immediate attitude as he said, " no just forget it, I dont have time to wait." Thats the thanks I get for catering to him everyday of his stinkin life right? SO, i said, " Ill have it done in a minute and run it down to you." He says, " well Ill try to still be here." UGH!!! I so wish I could have smacked him through the phone!!! So, I whip his lunch together in record time and throw the kids in the car and rush down there. Call his phone cause I see him and finally find him. I am proud and pompus at this point cause it took me like 5 minutes to get there and I so wanted to rub it in his face. But he when I got it to him he was so sickning sweet to me and thankful that I couldnt. He does that all the time when he knows I really wanna lay into him. I guess I should count my blessings that he doesnt like to push me, cause I can really be a brat sometimes.
SO it has been quite a day so far and I am so exhausted. I wish someone would give me a ton of money so I could go on vacation all by myself and just read a book and relax!!! Any takers?? Hope you all enjoy my ramblings!

Summer is here

What a beautiful week we have had.The sun finally started to shine around here and it was gorgeous out. We have been picnicing outside under the shade tree for lunch everyday. Its funny how such a simple thing can bring such joy to my little girls. And the best part for me is afterwards I get to sit in the sun and read a book while they play in the sandbox and on the swingset. Such a simple thing, but it has been the best time. I started reading a new book, which has been really good for me. I used to read a book a day in my younger years, but it has been hard to find time lately. But I decided to make time. And I tell you it is the best thing I could have done for myself. Im enjoying my book and I have been so much more relaxed.
I am really enjoying my blog and all of my blog follwers. Im definetly still learning about it all. Like one question I have is how do I get my own blog button. Sounds pretty stupid, but I havent been able to figure it out. Plus any tips on how to improve my blog and my following would be greatly appreciated. I hope to hear from you all soon!!
Oh yeah, Im gonna post some pics that I forgot to post last week of Emma at her final assembly. Hope you all enjoy!!

Making Your Own Curtains

So, Im really not impressed with the price of curtains these days, or with the price of anything for that matter. I have decided to make my own but I am pretty much illterate when it comes to sewing, sewing machines or anything crafty that takes talent, not just pure luck. So if anyone knows an EASY way to make nice curtains, I would really appreciate your help, advice, and support as it will be a long, hard, and daunting experience. Seriously any help will be greatly appreciated!! Thanks Everyone!!