day two headache

A non-stop headache for the second day in a row is not much fun. Im definetly feeling the pressure to perform my motherly duties today. The only time the pain subsides is when I have my head pressed into a pillow. And we all know how much time I have to do that. Also, in about an hour, my daughters friend will be here for a sleep over. Sometimes I think I'm trying to punish myself by taking on so much, but my problem is saying the word "no". It seems like such a simple word, but to me it means dissappointing someone. And I dont like to do that. I guess its something that Im going to have to work on. But for now, i'll just keep pushing on, and waiting for words of encouragement from a few new friends. Thanks again everyone for listening to my babblings.

Ranting and Raging

Im having one of those days today. My kids are out of control, pounding on walls and whining constantly about everything. They wont listen to a word I say. Like seriously can you give me a break please. I havent even been able to finish one cup of coffee today and I usually drink 3 at least. My head is literally pounding like someone is hammering it from inside and I cant get a moments peace!!! I try so hard to be a good mother and keep my cool as much as possible, but I cant seem to keep it all together today. My patience are wearing thin. And to top it all off my husband is being a giant pain in the butt. I usually bring him his lunch at work around 10ish since Emma got out of school cause our schedule has changed a little and kids sleep till like 9. So when he called this morning I told him I would be dropping his lunch off between 10:30- 11. Instead he calls me at like 8:45 and says, "Im gonna be at such and such in like five minutes, wanna bring me my lunch?" and me being the obedient wife that I am said,"sure give me like 15 mintues ive gotta throw it together." In return I get an immediate attitude as he said, " no just forget it, I dont have time to wait." Thats the thanks I get for catering to him everyday of his stinkin life right? SO, i said, " Ill have it done in a minute and run it down to you." He says, " well Ill try to still be here." UGH!!! I so wish I could have smacked him through the phone!!! So, I whip his lunch together in record time and throw the kids in the car and rush down there. Call his phone cause I see him and finally find him. I am proud and pompus at this point cause it took me like 5 minutes to get there and I so wanted to rub it in his face. But he when I got it to him he was so sickning sweet to me and thankful that I couldnt. He does that all the time when he knows I really wanna lay into him. I guess I should count my blessings that he doesnt like to push me, cause I can really be a brat sometimes.
SO it has been quite a day so far and I am so exhausted. I wish someone would give me a ton of money so I could go on vacation all by myself and just read a book and relax!!! Any takers?? Hope you all enjoy my ramblings!